19. Mexico. Guitar. Bass. Mandolin. The Beatles. Aerosmith. AC/DC. Arcade Fire. The Black Keys. Alt J. The Vaccines. Mac Demarco. The Strokes. Tame Impala. Temples. The Kooks. Melody Prochet. Arctic Monkeys. The Killers. The Sheepdogs. Fleet Foxes. Camara Obscura. MGMT. The Virgins. Bleached. King Krule.
Maybe I’m amazed at the way I really need you,
and maybe you’re the only woman who could ever help me.
first day at college
I want to call you. I have the telephone. I really want to talk with you. I have though a lot about you. I have thought everything I want to say. I honesty don’t know if I can. I am not frightened of dialing the numbers I know by memory, nor of your voice. What I am most afraid of are the words you may say. What I am most frightened of is the moment in which we will have to hang the call. I am frightened to death of the moment in which I no longer hear your voice. It has been a long time since I heard it. Listening to your voice again is a temptation that frightens me. I have thought a lot, but I have suffered more. I can’t wake in the morning without thinking in your…
I can’t. I can’t avoid thinking of you. I can’t imagine you with another person. I can’t avoid harming myself with every thought that runs through my head. I don’t want to lighten more fire into this idea that tortures and consumes me. I want you to know that I love you. I want to talk to you, I truly wish it more than anything. I want to tell you everything that is going on. But it is too much of a risk. I love you, but I want you to know that if I don’t call you tonight is because I decided to take care of my heart, and not because a lack of love.